Contemplative Gratitude || 10.20.14

|| Monday Madness? ||

The fact that it is the 20th of October already sends shivers down my spine. How has the year flown by so quickly? What have I done this year? What am I going to do? What all have I accomplished as I near my birthday? It is humbling the way time passes -- so quickly if unappreciated and so deliciously paced when tapped into and harnessed. I wish for more of a slow down. More time to savor the way the fall leaves are changing and dropping, making walking beautiful and breezes content. I wish to savor each sip of my morning coffee rather than gulp it down on my way to class. I wish to savor these last days of blue skies before my need to hibernate becomes all to clear. I wish to savor what this season ignites in my heart and makes me question why's and how's and what if's.

This past weekend was so lovely. It was the first breath of fresh air I have taken in a long time. The kind of breath that goes all the way down to your toes and exhales in perfect harmony. I need more of those breaths. Everyone does. I'm not happy being back here in this place away from home. That is most certainly what it feels like. Just a place. But I will find a way around this, making it work to my desires and dreams.

This post, far more contemplative than intended speaks volumes to where my head has been these last months. What is it like to follow your dreams from a young age? Where are the role models who said 'stop' in their teens and learned to follow their truths and their passions? I need them more than ever right now.

Contemplative Monday... anyone else having one of those? How was everyone's weekend?

|| GRATITUDE ||

I am grateful for dogs filled with soul and heart. I am grateful for chips and salsa and humus. I am grateful for books for pleasure. I am grateful for unplugging my phone and really being present in my weekend. I am grateful for trips and new places. I am grateful for hopes and dreams and realizations. I am grateful for plans and lists. I am grateful for motivation. I am grateful for new things to add and old things to subtract. I am grateful for acceptance and appreciation. I am grateful for the now, for I am in it and trying my best to treasure it's moments.

What are you grateful for?

xxoo

[weekend snapshots by emily friend + wedding flowers]

This Too Shall Pass ||10.15.14

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This was originally posted to There's Beauty in Recovery last week... jump through to the site at the end of the excerpt to read more...

Mantra: “I release all that does not serve me. I harness all the good that lives within.”

I’d love to say that I’m as perky as I’ve been – that the sun and moon and stars revolve around my splendor in perfect orbit and I could bounce upon the highest of mountains and scream at the top of my lungs about delicious excitement and expression. But in reality, I want to run back to my little home away from home and hide under the covers. Life right now makes me want to scream and shout with tired eyes and a soul that just wants a hug that means more than a senseless hello. Life just isn’t making sense to me, loves, and I’m at a loss for what to do. I’ve nipped the negative body talk in the bud – though it sprouts back with a vengeance upon every clip. My heart is begging for a mate that looks into my eyes and reads my soul — someone who knows more about me than anyone else and is willing to lie with my pain and not ask questions. My mind wants to ask why I am so messed up, but I know that this question is futile – there is absolutely nothing wrong with me. The world is just taking its sweet time unfolding ... [keep reading]

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Ever have those kind of days? How are you enjoying your Wednesday? comment below...

xxoo

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Vibrations of the Highest Frequencies || 10.14.14

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"I am filled with love and hope and vibrate at the highest frequencies."

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Let yourself be breathed. Open your heart to receive not just give. You are deserving of overwhelming hope and manifestation. Accept the power. You can be anything you want to be. Really. Enjoy this moment, this very one. Feel the precious present, and allow it to elevate your vibrations to the highest degree. You are worthy.

I'll be saying this mantra on repeat for this rainy day I have here. What are three things you can do right now to manifest your dreams?

 xxoo

 [image found on my pinterest hunts]